I Was Raped By A CoworkerI had to work with him on this project that we were asigned.
At first it was only at work but than he said we need to wok fast on this so we decided to go to eachothers house to finish quicker, now I was practicly new at that job(3.5 months) I was the newbie right off college, he was an employee there for 3 yrs.
So he said lets go to your place cuz theyre remodeling his apt. so im like ok sure.
He came by around 6pm with take out we started working,
So when we were eating we started talking and told me about himself how he was in a relationship with his gf for 2 years how she dumped him and he was really sad and all that and I was telling him it wasnt the end of the world. And than he asked me if I found him good looking I was like sure yeah (a bit weirded out, cause i didnt know the guy)
Than I told him that there were other people out there, and than he said people like you.
And I looked at him like what.. nooo :D and just brushed it off with a smile.
And than quickly changed subjects cause it was getting really akward, now he wasnt bad looking and he was practicly 3 years older than me but I didnt like those work relationships kind and I already was seeing someone so yeah no.
When I told him we should wrap things up on the project his facial ex
So i get up to take the food carts in the trash in my kitchen when he comes up from behind me, he tells me that nobody ever denied him and he knows Im into him.. im like youre not funny and i turned around to face him when he grabs me from the back of my neck to really face him, than he started kissing me, when he lost his grip I pushed him off and told him its time for him to leave.
But he didnt care thats when i got really scared he comes to me and he grabs me by my hair and literally drags me while im begging him not to hurt me and begging him to leave that i wasnt going to tell anyone, i kept screaming so he hits me on my face really hard and pushes me on the couch he tells me that nobody ever denied him and i wasnt going to be the first, he rips my shirt while holding me down with his other hand and than he reached my pants and I tried to hold onto those but he was far to strong so he rips the buttons and takes them off, and than he hits me two more times, and I was really weak, i cant explain really like it was hard for me to lift my head because he punched me in the back of my neck. He had me on my stomach on the couch when i heard him taking off his belt and than his clothes when he rapes me, I screamed because it hurt so much and i was crying, and I made wounds on the palm of my hands with my nails cause i kept rolling them in fists the whole time, cause i was in so much pain.
There was a moment when i regained my strenght and he was losing grip, so i climbed down from the couch and he doesnt even care he goes on the floor with me and pushes my head onto the cold floor, i really couldnt count how long he was raping me, but than he stopped and I thought he was leaving when he lifts my head by my hair and asks me where my room is, when i denied to tell him he hits my head agains the floor so i tell him and he throws me on his shoulders, goes to my room and closes the door behind me, I remember looking at the door and thinking how white it was, and than he threw me on my bed ,all the time me begging him to stop
He went on until 5 am (i saw it on my clock), he fell asleep next to me and he didnt leave until a couple hours later, around 8am (when my alarm went off).
I stayed quiet the whole time he was sleeping next to me, like i was in shock, i didnt move or make a sound.
He woke up I felt him looking at me and he took a shower. before he left he got dressed and my guess is he went to work.
Before he left he told me while making me face him, if i ever told anyone he would kill me, and there was this look on his face that was really scary like he really ment it.
He grabbed me by my neck that was really bruised and he started making out with me on my bruised lip.
He told me that i wasnt going to work today (friday) that he was telling them that i was sick and he better see me on monday at work.
I took a long shower, cleaned myself up and went to the phone when i saw his face in my mind i put the phone down, and started to cry.
The whole weekend I layed in bed, didnt pick up the phone or answered the door. I was in pain and I really was ashamed, i had the feeling like i did something wrong and had to hide myself from the world.
I went to work on monday and he pretended like nothing happened. now I still see him ALL the time.
Its been 2 months and I never told anybody because I really am scared, i cant aford to quit my job and im scared if i do he will hurt me. I live pretty much in fear that he'll come to my apt and hurt me again.
I broke up with my boyfriend because i couldnt handle it, my life just is going downhill, and I now found out that i have to do a group project with him we're like 4 and he's in my group, when they do groups they really dont care whos in they just put you in one but im sure he told them he wanted to be in my group. i dont know what im gonna do, but im gonna make sure i dont stay alone with him in a room.
I wanted to let this out, feel like a weights been lifted.
Im sorry this was long.