Alone With My Mind

I hate those days when the only thing that I can possibly think about is that damned day. I don't want that day, that experience, that man to rule my life any more.
And I know that there are many other people like me out there that share my experience, but no one around me can empathize. No one will just listen, just hold me while I cry it all out.
So I keep it bottled up.
And out it slowly comes.
Days, nights, weeks, where I put on a smile and pretend to be the perfect person I've always pretended, while inside I am falling apart and everything feels black and sore and empty.
Today is one of those days and I feel alone.
AynsleyRosalinda AynsleyRosalinda
18-21, F
4 Responses Nov 26, 2012

You are not alone. This is the same exact thing I am going through myself. As much as I do not want him to run my life anymore, and especially ruin it, time and time again that is what happens. I keep it bottled up inside and face it own my own. Mainly because so many people lack empathy. I hope you are able to find an escape and move forward with your life! I know how hard that is.

Thank you. This made me feel like I'm not alone. I go through the same thing everyday, **** every minute. I never know when my mentality will change and Ill be haunted again by him. It keeps me on edge and makes me feel like a prisoner to my own mind. This message made me feel okay for once. Thank you, best wishes.

I'm really glad my words did that for you.
Wanna talk sometime?

I could really use that. It would mean the world to me.

I'm going through exactly this. message me if you need someone to talk to. I hope you're okay

Your not alone. Read my post to see if you are interested.