They Were Watching

I was 14,  a virgin, young and stupid. I was at a party at a close friends house and had a few drinks. I asked a boy that was there where another of our friends was. He said that they were at the school helping at some event and that he was about to leave to pick him up. He asked if I wanted to go along for the ride. I said yes. We got into his van and went to the school.
When we got there, I went into the back of the van to get something. I don't remember what, it was something stupid like a bottle of water. When my back was turned, he grabbed me, pushed me to the floor in the back of the van and raped me, in the parking lot of my high school. I struggled and said no, but to no avail.
When he finally got off of me, I saw faces at the back window of the van, laughing. His friends watched him rape me and joked about it afterward. That was pretty ****** up.
Now, I am a grown woman, and have dealt with all of that, but it's still hard to think about without being right back there again.
trickyninja trickyninja
26-30, F
4 Responses Jul 17, 2007

i guarantee you they'll get theirs one way or another. you may want pay back on your own terms. one of the things i've learned is that once someone hurts you, they get power over you and if you stay mad at them, they keep that power. while you are thinking about them, they are probably sleeping in their beds not even thinking of you or even remember you or what they did to you. if you don't believe in god, believe in karma because it does come around. i've seen too much not to believe it. <br />
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i am glad to know you dealt with it but have you been to counseling for it? On the vindictive side (I HOPE THEY BURN IN HELL TOO AND SCREAM IN PAIN, AGONY AND REGRETTING THEIR APATHETIC SADISTIC ACTIONS.)

i guarantee you they'll get theirs one way or another. you may want pay back on your own terms. one of the things i've learned is that once someone hurts you, they get power over you and if you stay mad at them, they keep that power. while you are thinking about them, they are probably sleeping in their beds not even thinking of you or even remember you or what they did to you. if you don't believe in god, believe in karma because it does come around. i've seen too much not to believe it. <br />
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i am glad to know you dealt with it but have you been to counseling for it? On the vindictive side (I HOPE THEY BURN IN HELL TOO AND SCREAM IN PAIN, AGONY AND REGRETTING THEIR APATHETIC SADISTIC ACTIONS.)

oh, my, god! I'm so sorry for you! that is a pile of SH!IT right there, how could someone ever do that to someoe and still deall with themselves, knowing that they've seen a girl being raped...laughing! what a bunsh of dickheads. i hope they burn in hell.

Geezz.. There are some really sick people out there.<br />
I suck at advices.. so just please be safe.