Stolen!!!When I was 14, I had a stranger steal my virginity from me. It all began with me hanging out with a group of older girls from high school. I was a freshman and they were all seniors. They treated me like I was on their level and enjoyed having me around. One night, we all went camping at a local state park. We all began drinking and partying. Guys began to arrive that I didnt know, older men. I had been drinking most of the evening and this guy kept acting like he just wanted to be my friend and talk. I thought he was a nice guy. I finally realized that I had had enough to drink and wanted to go and lay down in one of the tents. I sort of passed out and then woke up with this guy kissing me and running his hands all up under my clothes. I looked at him and asked him to stop. He had this mean look on his face and told me that I know that I want this. I told him no and tried to push him off of me. He held me down and began raping me. Touching me and making me feel so awful. I was crying and continued to ask him to stop. He continued and went all the way to get himself off. Whether he knew it or not.....he took my virginity. I never got to save that for the right person. A personal part of me was taken forever. Something I can never get back. I hate him for all that he is and who he is. I never knew who he was.....I did find out he was 21...so charges could have been placed. But, I was scared and actually didnt talk about it until I was 27. I am now 33. I kept all of it buried inside of me. It still haunts me to this day. Im going to deal with it all head on once again to learn to deal. It still effects me, even though I have it buried so deeply in my mind.
picgirl 31-35, F 22 Responses 9 Nov 7, 2007