Gang Raped At 14

So it happened when i was really young , there were about 6 guys they dragged me away into a cuboard and sexually assaulted me . I was screaming , crying so loud but there was no help . All the guys were at least 18 and over . When this happened to me i was confussed , but i managed to bloc it all out for a while never talking about it and stuff . Then it came to the court case ,i was nervous i felt sick , and i wanted to run a 1000 miles away .They ended up getting 8 years which is good , but now i feel worse then ever now i have gotten older i have been thinking about it for . its really been affecting me recently . I can't trust people they way i used to I knew one of the guys and i thought i trusted him . RAPE IS HORRIDE AND YOU ONLY KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE IF ITS HAPPENED TO YOU , I HAVE N['pEVER TAKEN HELP FROM ANYONE I THOUGHT I COULD DEAL WITH IT MYSELF . I still havent gotten help , but i am going too and im 18 now . I suffer from depression , anxiety and SEVERE MOOD CHANGES . i need help idsjlofjlwejq';[k cant trust anyone

Now when i have sex sometimes i get flash backs it makes me feel dirty and butters .

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lucylost lucylost
18-21, F
4 Responses Mar 6, 2010

Hello skyeF your profile is set to private , would love too chat to you . <br />
I know what i did was right , and good from the outcome . But the expierence was awful having to relive it all . <br />
I have never been so open about it before ,and for the first time in 3 years i am finally getting help . <br />
I used to get tell them i was okay and didnt want to talk about it , butnow i have gotten older it has effected me alot . I can't do certain things because i am scared . And can't trust people because im scared what they will do to me . Thank you guys

Im so sorry this happened to you. Don't feel bad about it, its not your fault. At least you told the police and went to court with your case. Trust me, you did the right thing. There are six less rapists in the open world thanks to you, you managed to most probably save many young girls from experiencing what you did. Seek therapy, only talking and accepting your past will help you move on. <br />
All the best luck,<br />
If you want to talk to me, go ahead and PM me :)<br />
Hugs XX

You poor darling, it is a very bad way to be introduced to sex.<br />
It must be hard to enjoy yourself when you are gang banged<br />
by six young men.<br />
I hope you get over your fears soon.

You poor darling, it is a very bad way to be introduced to sex.<br />
It must be hard to enjoy yourself when you are gang banged<br />
by six young men.<br />
I hope you get over your fears soon.