Pleasing Everyone Else

My whole life I have been so busy pleasing everyone first before me that I confused this was being happy.

My thoughts went like this:

I don't care what we do, as long as everyone else is pleased, I am too.

Whatever everyone else wants to do is fine with me.

I'll eat whatever you wanna eat.

Do what you wanna do.

And I was completely fine and happy with this... until I started realizing that I had nothing to say when I was asked, "Well, what do you wanna do?" and "What do you want to eat? I never knew what to say.

It made me start thinking... Yeah, what about me? What do I like? Why don't I know these things? Sometimes I did want to suggest something, but I was afraid that maybe no one would agree or they'd think it was a stupid idea.

I need to take some time to learn about my self. It's okay to have likes and dislikes. It's okay to have an opinion that's different from everyone elses.

How can you be yourself if you don't know who you are?

VanGo VanGo
22-25, F
2 Responses Feb 22, 2009

Ah yes, another club. I 've got so many stories to share. yet!<br />
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and...Omg.... that is totally me. Just a go with the flow type of person. <br />
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I was raised to put others before me because that's the polite thing to do. As I mature I'm learning that it's okay to be self ish, it's okay to buy your self treats.. I always felt guilty buying myself things because I always thought I should be buying stuff for other people all the time. The more love you give yourself the more love you have to give out.

Well my Dear....Another club that we are both a member of...hehehe It sounded as if you were talking about me.....That was and at time still say....Makes my Hubbie upset.....But For so long I would say....I want to do this....And we would still wind up doing what he wanted to do....So I just gave up.......ANd the fact that I was the middle child of five and ..Once more...You went along with the majority....and so you just learned to "Go with the Flow"