Stephen King Texas

Young people died very violent deaths. It was not unusual to have evil around us. My father would call me into our only bathroom when he was in the bathtub. He would tell me to find the wash cloth and his penis would be sticking up in the water. When I would reach into the bathtub, he would grab my hand and put on his penis. I was 11 years old at the time. I don't really know what to expect from this sharing.......I am 66 years old and I have 2 children, girls, and grandchildren, (7). I have been married for 44 years and have always hated having sex. My husband is a college jock and is totally cold to my wanting to share my feelings. I would win an Oscar Award for my sex life with him. I have gone to therapy but am resigned to the fact that I will not experience loving a man. There are alot more sexual encounters that are much higher on the scale of what I have mentioned. Things that I have tried to block from my memory. My father has made me into a monster.

I have lesbian friends and I am not interested in that. I have been through years of counseling and nothing seems to heal me.

If someone out there can help me I would love to hear from you.
hornedtoad1 hornedtoad1
66-70, F
Jan 8, 2013