I Did It...I ended it. I didn't hear from him for several days, then he calls me yesterday as if nothing is wrong. I just realized that for 15 months, this has been entirely on HIS TERMS and that's not acceptable to me anymore. With Christmas and New Years coming, who will he be with...his wife. That's how it should be. But where will I be?? Sitting here alone, crying. That's not how it should be for ME! When did I stop being so important???
I've got 2 weeks away from him before I go back to work, and I intend to wrap my head around the fact that I am better off alone than with only a PORTION of a man. I want the whole man.
Sound pretty strong, huh? Don't let the words fool you - it's what I feel BUT...I am a mess.