I Ended It
Just now i ended it with my mm. I hope it stays ended. I cant cope with the constant explosion of emotions anymore. Its a game for the mm. A drug for the other woman. I know this now. Before the current mm i was always in control, nevet wanted or expected more. But then i met "him". Even before the affair i cared to much. Then the affair hit and suddenly i realised i didnt just care i loved. And boy did i love everything about him. I worshiped (and still do) his very being. His soul. Everything. But with the mm you cant fall in love. How often do they truly love you back? How often do they worship your soul and not just your body? They are married. Most have kids. They love their familys but are just lacking the spark that they once had. We. The other women fulfil that. I dont want to be the other woman anymorr. I want to be THE woman.