And I'm seeing a 24 year old with a kid.. He says their in an open marriage. But it still scares the hell out of me. I think I'm falling in love. Which is such a terrible idea. He won't leave his wife for me. I don't want to end it though. He makes me so happy. He makes me feel like I'm worth being alive for. I know I'm young and stupid. His wife apparently has a boyfriend in New York. Which is kind of far away from where we live. I just don't know. Ergh. It's frustrating. I really, really like him. But at the same time, what we are doing is illegal. I'm not 18 yet. He is 7 years older than I am.