I Was Just So Sure

 One time I saw dolphins for the first time and decided that working with them, and helping them was my calling. I was 'so sure' of this that I ran to my mother and father and told them that this was what I was going to do. I was just 'so happy' that I understood what I wanted. I 'loved' the whole idea just so much. 

But my mother said: "you have to be really smart for that and study for lots and lots of years, its very difficult". In her way she said 'you cannot do that'.

I was so very dissapointed and I believed her, I believed I was not up to the challenge and felt sad over it for years. I never told anyone. I actually do believe it would have been a good path for me. But now it is kind of late to start studies etc for that. 

The result is, by the way, that I never believed I could do something 'difficult', I still have trouble with it. After a normal kind of school I stopped and never learned anything special. I know I have talents, but I did not have the faith.  

Juna Juna
22-25, F
4 Responses Aug 2, 2009

Juna you should find what you love and I think a Marine biologist is what you would have to study for. My father went back to school when he was 45 to get his degree in psychology which was what he loved. The sky is the limit. You can do anything you want!!!! Believe. And thanks for the response on your blog. May the force be with you always.

College would be paid for by the government if you were younger? What part of the world is that. I have never heard of it anywhere.

Its too late because I have passed the age in which the study is payed for, for a big, part by the country. And my own income is very low, I can not possibly afford a full study like that. My mother has even less money, she would 'never' be able to help me even though she would want to now. And I do not know my father anymore since I was about 14.<br />
I guess it would be the study to become a vet.<br />
Its quite expensive and long lasting.

Why is it too late to start studies for what you really want to do? There is no time limit on finding happiness in your work.