I Wish We Had Never Met

Not because I hate her but because it hurts so much now that we are not best friends.

I never knew what it was really like to be "best friends" with someone until as a young adult I met the best friend I ever had. We were different people but (I thought) we agreed on almost all of the same religious and political philosophies (amongst the vast number of other things that made us best friends). I really don't like to talk about religious and political things because I don't like to start conflict with people, but it just came so natural for us and we were completely on the same page. (AKA I would never post on your story telling you that you shouldn't believe or feel a certain way so please don't do that to me.) Well, she was away at school and we were both busy and hadn't talked as much as we had in the past when she dropped a bomb on me one day. I won't say what it was because I really don't want to get into arguments with people over the topic but let's just say it broke my heart. She seems to think our friendship could be the same as before but I know it never can. We both want our friendship back, but I cannot accept the thing she told me and still be her best friend and she's not willing to give up the thing that caused our friendship to break.

It has been 8 months since this first started and sometimes it still feels like yesterday. Yes, I can get out of bed now and live a "normal life" but it kills me in the back of my mind that I probably won't have my "best friend" at my wedding soon or a part of my life in the future.
sillygose sillygose
22-25, F
Jan 7, 2012