Lost In TranslationI spend a good 5yrs of my life with someone (on and off), which I believed was my true love in this life. We were high school sweethearts and life was good... until I found out that he was cheating on me with 3 different woman. My heart was broken to pieces, I could not get up in the morning or face any of our friends. It turns out quite a few of our friends knew about it, but no one wanted to be the bearer of bad news and upset me. So they waited until we went out clubbing one night and once we were all well pissed, I decided to go to the bathroom. On my return all 5 my guy friends had bought me a rose and sat me down and wanted to tell me something important. I spent the next few weeks in turmoil and broke it off on xmas day so every year he sends me a facebook message to tell me " Do you remember what you did to me on this day?" It was the hardest decision to make ever, and until today he wants me back and a chance to show me that he has become a better person. But I am with my partner now, engaged and happy. I think.
My high school sweetheart got a tattoo on the inside of his arm saying that as long as he lives he will love me, for me. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if we were together again, but I already have huge trust issues so I know it would drive me mad. I know it was 8yrs ago, but it had a huge influence on my life and personality. I believe that your experiences in life, makes you who you are.
I will always have a special place in my heart for him, but I love someone else and I believe that have a better future with each other. Sometimes when we fight I wonder how different my life could have been, but I always know that it will also pass. He messaged me on the day that he got engaged to another girl, saying that he knows that he is engaged to the wrong person, but if I dont want him then he will have to settle for her.
It confuses me and he has always had this affect on me, but I am happy and in love.
So **** you for wasting my time. *******
PrincessLulu 26-30, F 4 Responses 2 Nov 19, 2010