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Lost In Translation

I spend a good 5yrs of my life with someone (on and off), which I believed was my true love in this life. We were high school sweethearts and life was good... until I found out that he was cheating on me with 3 different woman. My heart was broken to pieces, I could not get up in the morning or face any of our friends. It turns out quite a few of our friends knew about it, but no one wanted to be the bearer of bad news and upset me. So they waited until we went out clubbing one night and once we were all well pissed, I decided to go to the bathroom. On my return all 5 my guy friends had bought me a rose and sat me down and wanted to tell me something important. I spent the next few weeks in turmoil and broke it off on xmas day so every year he sends me a facebook message to tell me " Do you remember what you did to me on this day?" It was the hardest decision to make ever, and until today he wants me back and a chance to show me that he has become a better person. But I am with my partner now, engaged and happy. I think.

My high school sweetheart got a tattoo on the inside of his arm saying that as long as he lives he will love me, for me. Sometimes I wonder what it would have been like if we were together again, but I already have huge trust issues so I know it would drive me mad. I know it was 8yrs ago, but it had a huge influence on my life and personality. I believe that your experiences in life, makes you who you are.

I will always have a special place in my heart for him, but I love someone else and I believe that have a better future with each other. Sometimes when we fight I wonder how different my life could have been, but I always know that it will also pass. He messaged me on the day that he got engaged to another girl, saying that he knows that he is engaged to the wrong person, but if I dont want him then he will have to settle for her.

It confuses me and he has always had this affect on me, but I am happy and in love.

So **** you for wasting my time. *******

PrincessLulu PrincessLulu 26-30, F 4 Responses Nov 19, 2010

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I dont think you should be so hard on yourself and dont let what other people say about your life be yoru reality. We all make our own decisions in life, they might not always be the right ones - but no one can tell you how your life is going to turn out besides you. Dont give them that power over you. You have the ability to have a wonderful life ahead of you filled with loving relationships. Just be strong and true to yourself, and dont waste your time on those not worthy of your time and respect. Hugs xxx

Sigh, I met my ex in 2007...we we're together for almost 3 years....I have 2 children with him....one that he wanted and one that he didn't. we've been battling for custody, i was only 17 when i was pregnant....i'm young anddd i found out he was a PHYSCO....anddd then found out he had his ex girlfriend at our house we bought together....he abused me...physcially mentally emotionally....i am too stubborn to go talk to someone about it. I'm hurt, angry, scared...i've been with my current boyfriend for a year and now..i'm messing it ALL up because of my past....I still love my ex.....i dont know WHY. what he has done to me, how he treated me.....but i hate him at the same time. I want to be over him, I want him to go away, but....theres still that little place in my heart that says....i wonder if......and when i was 15...i went to a physcatrist due to my brothers drug problems effecting me...and they said i'll never have a good relationship if i dont get along with my dad....well i think their right!!

Sigh, I met my ex in 2007...we we're together for almost 3 years....I have 2 children with him....one that he wanted and one that he didn't. we've been battling for custody, i was only 17 when i was pregnant....i'm young anddd i found out he was a PHYSCO....anddd then found out he had his ex girlfriend at our house we bought together....he abused me...physcially mentally emotionally....i am too stubborn to go talk to someone about it. I'm hurt, angry, scared...i've been with my current boyfriend for a year and now..i'm messing it ALL up because of my past....I still love my ex.....i dont know WHY. what he has done to me, how he treated me.....but i hate him at the same time. I want to be over him, I want him to go away, but....theres still that little place in my heart that says....i wonder if......and when i was 15...i went to a physcatrist due to my brothers drug problems effecting me...and they said i'll never have a good relationship if i dont get along with my dad....well i think their right!!

Gee, I hope my boyfriend never cheats on me!!