Watching Figure Skating Depresses Me :(

It depresses me. It depresses my brother. It makes my mom break into tears. Figure Skating for our family has been a blessing and a curse. My brother was headed to the 2010 Winter Olympics, and I was following him, but 8 years behind. The one who encouraged my brother so much and cheered him on at so many times, the one who was there all the time for him, and spent whole summers at a time with him, tragically died of lung cancer in 2007. It was my Nanny. She was my brothers life, so I think we all know what happened next. He couldn't go on knowing that she wouldn't be watching him anymore and said he'd continue later, but never did. His life is tearing apart. My parents spent so much time and money into his dream when they were soo poor. I can't figure skate anymore. Only as a simple recreational sport. My body couldn't take all the intricate moves anymore. I want to cry just thinking of it. I have my badges and I still want to continue, but my mom doesn't think I'm going to be able to. I quit shortly after he did. He was also my inspiration. :'( I want to figure skate every single day, but either my parents wont let me go or nobody will go with me. Its such a big door and a big part of my life to close off, and I will always have that part in my body that yearns to go out and skate.
electricbluecat7 electricbluecat7
13-15, F
Dec 9, 2012