I Have A Bladder Disease

Hi Everyone,

I'm a 38 year old female and I just recently started wearing adult diapers.  It was a very difficult decision for me and I went through a lot of tears in the realization that this was the reality of my life.  I have had the bladder disease interstitial cystitis since the age of 18 and it causes the frequent urge to void and pain in the bladder.  I just graduated from college as an elementary teacher and I just subbed for the first time a few days ago.  When I was student teaching there was an older lady teacher that I would have to go give a bathroom break to because she couldn't hold it until lunch.  I felt sorry for her.  I ended up having to repeat a whole semester of student teaching because my cooperating teacher had a problem that I went so much.  That is when I realize I needed to wear diapers.  I told her that I would wear them, but that just made her kick me out of her classroom even faster.  I don't plan on telling anyone that I wear them.  I have bought a bunch of dresses and long cardigans to hide the bulk of the diaper and I wear biker shorts to keep it in place.  My worst fear is leaking.  I have already gone through 40 dollars of store bought diapers only to discover they were no good.  Yesterday I ordered my favorite diaper online.  It is the tena brand and I ordered their maximum absorbency diaper.  I tend to pee a lot.  I like tenas because they are not plastic like the others.  I do not want my students to hear the crinkle when I walk.  Wearing diapers gives me a peace of mind that I will be able to continue on with my journey of being a successful elementary teacher.  Thanks for reading.

TenaLover TenaLover
36-40, F
3 Responses Jan 22, 2010

I am going through something very similar. Almost 7 years ago, I got IC due to a sexual trauma to my pelvic floor and a subsequent infection. After 5 years, I seemed to be in remission for 1 1/2-2 years but recently got acute bronchitis for the first time and I believe the steroids and antibiotics for that brought back my ic with a vengeance. I have never been so depressed in my life and am missing so much work. I have been contemplating suicide so much lately but know in my heart of hearts that is not the best way to handle this situation. I believe in God and would not want to devastate my family and friends. I am having difficulty coping but am grateful that I am not the only one in the world who has to consider diapers. I have worn them before, but the ones I wore were not absorbent enough for my situation. I will try again as a drug store in town as well as companies online have some super absorbent ones.

I have gotten to the point, that I do not care what morons think. Diapers are not a bad thing!

leaking is a problem and with rubber pants the kind that are more form fitting u can get rid of some of the crinkle of the plastic ones