I Have A Bladder Disease

Hi Everyone,

I'm a 38 year old female and I just recently started wearing adult diapers.  It was a very difficult decision for me and I went through a lot of tears in the realization that this was the reality of my life.  I have had the bladder disease interstitial cystitis since the age of 18 and it causes the frequent urge to void and pain in the bladder.  I just graduated from college as an elementary teacher and I just subbed for the first time a few days ago.  When I was student teaching there was an older lady teacher that I would have to go give a bathroom break to because she couldn't hold it until lunch.  I felt sorry for her.  I ended up having to repeat a whole semester of student teaching because my cooperating teacher had a problem that I went so much.  That is when I realize I needed to wear diapers.  I told her that I would wear them, but that just made her kick me out of her classroom even faster.  I don't plan on telling anyone that I wear them.  I have bought a bunch of dresses and long cardigans to hide the bulk of the diaper and I wear biker shorts to keep it in place.  My worst fear is leaking.  I have already gone through 40 dollars of store bought diapers only to discover they were no good.  Yesterday I ordered my favorite diaper online.  It is the tena brand and I ordered their maximum absorbency diaper.  I tend to pee a lot.  I like tenas because they are not plastic like the others.  I do not want my students to hear the crinkle when I walk.  Wearing diapers gives me a peace of mind that I will be able to continue on with my journey of being a successful elementary teacher.  Thanks for reading.

TenaLover TenaLover 36-40, F 6 Responses Jan 22, 2010

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I am going through something very similar. Almost 7 years ago, I got IC due to a sexual trauma to my pelvic floor and a subsequent infection. After 5 years, I seemed to be in remission for 1 1/2-2 years but recently got acute bronchitis for the first time and I believe the steroids and antibiotics for that brought back my ic with a vengeance. I have never been so depressed in my life and am missing so much work. I have been contemplating suicide so much lately but know in my heart of hearts that is not the best way to handle this situation. I believe in God and would not want to devastate my family and friends. I am having difficulty coping but am grateful that I am not the only one in the world who has to consider diapers. I have worn them before, but the ones I wore were not absorbent enough for my situation. I will try again as a drug store in town as well as companies online have some super absorbent ones.

Hi tenalover,<br />
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Wow!!! You and I seem to have alot in common. I am not a teacher but I sometimes cant get away for bathroom breaks. (i am a firefighter) I have been using Tena's at night for a few months now because I can not take Elivil or Atarax because of my job. They both make me way to groggy at night and the next day. I have just started using a diaper all the time because of my freq/urgenc. Oh, sorry, I have IC as well. I would love to talk more if you are willing. I would like to know how you are doing now and if you are still using them as a management tool.

I have gotten to the point, that I do not care what morons think. Diapers are not a bad thing!

leaking is a problem and with rubber pants the kind that are more form fitting u can get rid of some of the crinkle of the plastic ones

Good luck on your career. Don't worry so much that people will know you are wearing. It would never cross most people's minds.

Tena are a good make, though I have tried various others. I tend to wear plastic pants over my diaper as extra security. You can get adult size non-crinkly ones in soft plastic. I find that most leaks occur when I sit down and the diaper gets squeezed and so get wet marks on the backs of the legs of jeans. Therefore I tend to wear fairly large plastic pants and make sure they sit a bit low on the leg, to avoid this problem. though with a skirt you may not have such a prob. Good luck