I Wish I Didn't.

I really shouldn't be doing it. My heart is nothing pretty to look at. It's filthy and broken most of the time, and when it's not broken it seems to shout at my environment 'break me, break me'. I am trying to stop bothering people with the image of my heart. It's not doing anyone any good. I don't want people to worry about me because my heart looks so bad. I don't want people to see how I feel. I don't want to share my every thought, make a drama out of every scratch on the surface of my stupid heart. Who cares about my heart anyway? I don't want to be dramatic. I don't want to be sad. I don't want to be pathetic. I hate myself for making drama's, and I am very much aware of the fact that I am right now doing it again. I think I should start covering it up. My heart's not worth worrying about.

JojaRodenaLente JojaRodenaLente
18-21, F
2 Responses May 5, 2009

Thank you. I have asked God to come into my heart a long time ago, and he did. It makes things better, but unfortunately it doesn't mean you can't feel no pain. <br />
I thank you for praying for me. I like that.

Hello. I want to tell you something if you feel broken than that means something is missing in your life and I can say it is probably God's love for you. If you think your fiflthy or broken; than why not turn your life to God and ask Him to come into your life and all of you and cleanse you with if His everlasting love. He can save you if you open that door to your heart and let Him come in and ask Him to come in. God loves us so much and anything He can help us with, we can always count on Him, you just need to ask Him to come into your life. You cannot be broken or regert ever asking God to come into your life I am a child's of God and I am so thankful that I let Him in my life. Now I feel like I am a whole person. I will be praying for you and God bless you:]