I remember being in a relationship with an older girl. She was 18, and I was 15. It was long distance, but we had planned to meet up once she had saved up enough money. Honestly, most of the reason I stayed in the relationship for so long was because I was enthralled by the fact that an older woman was attracted to me, and hypnotized by the ******** to be quite honest. To have a ready outlet for pent up sexual tension who you could also talk to so that you wouldn't feel seemed to be my definition of girlfriend at that time. Well, we ended up breaking up because I got suspicious about whether or not she was staying faithful to me. See, she had suggested an open relationship and I suspected it was because she wanted actual sex with people she could touch. That kinda gave me permanent trust issues, so we decided to end it. But I learned one of the most important lessons of my whole life. See, although the entire time we were in that relationship we constantly would ask and reassure each other that we were more than just sex, but truth is; we weren't. That's all we were. For both of us, it was all about the sex. That's not a relationship. That's a booty call. Now I know that a relationship is much more. For one, not having to reassure your partner that your relationship isn't about sex. Because a relationship isn't just sex. It's so much more. It's like having your best friend by your side. You support each other; not leaning on each other, or relying on each other, but you support each other.
CrunchyNoodle CrunchyNoodle
18-21, M
Sep 2, 2014