MY First Zen Experience

I WENT TO A CLUB LAST FRIDAY. CLUB ZEN IN PORT OF SPAIN, TRINIDAD. IT WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT I WAS ATTENDING SINCE THE CLUB OPENED. MY VERY FIRST ZEN EXPERIENCE. MY HUSBAND, BROTHER  FRIENDS AND I ARRIVED EARLY. INSIDE THINGS WERE NOW GETTING STARTED. LET ME ADVISE YOU THAT YOU BETTER HAVE A SHITLOAD OF MONEY CAUSE DRINKS ARE EXPENSIVE LIKE DAT. NEEDLESS TO SAY ITS LENT AND IM CATHOLIC SO I DRANK REDBULL.  ZEN IS A BEAUTIFUL PLACE WITH LOTS OF BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE SO BEFORE LONG I STARTED TO FEEL DEPRESSED. WEIRD HUH? IN A PLACE THATS PUMPING HOT, GORGEOUS PEOPLE AND FANTASTIC MUSIC AND IM FEELING DEPRESSED? WELL, FIRST I HAD A HEADACHE AND MY HEADACHE INTENSIFIED WITH THE CONSUMPTION OF REDBULL. THE DEPRESSION CAME HOWEVER FROM WATCHING ALL THE SKINNY, HIP HOP DRESSED GORGEOUS YOUNG GIRLS AROUND ME. BOY DID I START TO FEEL INSECURE. AND FAT. I KEPT LOOKING AT MY COVERED UP, SLIGHTLY BULGING TUMMY AND COMPARING IT WITH THE FLAT, VERY FLAT EXPOSED TUMMY OF THE CHIC GIRLS.  A WAVE OF NOSTALGIA HIT ME. I REMEBERED THE DAYS OF THE CLUB IN GULF CITY WHEN I WAS ONE OF THE CHIC GIRLS, BELLY FLAT LIKE DAT. SKIMPY FASHIONABLE CLOTHES. MEMORIES OF DONTCHA WISH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WAS HOT LIKE ME CONSTANTLY INVADED MY THOUGHTS. NEEDLESS TO SAY I SOUGHT REFUGE ON A COUCH AND BEGAN TO CRY. MY HUSBAND WAS VERY CONCERNED, WHATS THE MATTER BABY? MY RESPONSE? U MUST BE WATCHING AND FANTASIZING BOUT ALL DEM WASHBOARD BELLY ******* IN HERE. WRONG. DAT WAS MY SILENT RESPONSE. INSTEAD I REPLIED I VE GOT A MIGRAINE. MY DISCOMFORT GOT WORSE AS THE NIGHT PROGRESSED. BETWEEN THE SEXY GIRLS FLEXING AT THE BAR TO HOT WUKK AND THE OVERSEXY GIRLS WINING CLOSE TO MY MAN I NEARLY WENT CRAZY IN ZEN. BETWEEN TWO AND THREE O CLOCK THE DJ STARTED TO BLAST OUT SOME SERIOUS TECHNO MUSIC AND COLD MIST AND CONFETTI  DESCENDED ON ALL OF US LIKE A TON OF BRICKS. THE PEOPLE WENT WILD. I WENT TO THE BATHROOM TO VOMIT AND CRY. AT THREE FIFTEEN I HAD HAD ENOUGH. SO WE LEFT. MY HUSBAND , MY BROTHER IN LAW AND FRIENDS WERE HIGH ON THEIR FIRST ZEN EXPERIENCE. HEAR DEM- WE GOING BACK NEXT FRIDAY FOR SURE. AND ME I WAS LIKE YEAH YEAH I CANT WAIT. INSIDE HOWEVER I WAS MORTIFIED. NEXT WEEK? HOW I GOING AND GET RID OF ALL DAT BABY FAT AROUND MY TUMMY? HOW AM I GOING TO BE ABLE TO WEAR A LOW RIDER JEANS AND TOP RIGHT UNDER MY BREAST? THE TRUTH IS ZEN WILL SEE ME NEXT YEAR. I THINK I CAN MANAGE TO LOSE 40 POUNDS BY THEN SO I CAN LIVE MY DREAM OF PLAYING MAS IN TRIBE IN A TWO PIECE. AND JUST MAYBE I WILL LOOK LIKE 25.
CHICATRINI CHICATRINI
36-40, F
1 Response Mar 10, 2007

Hey chica, ur not d only one who goes through that. Its just bcos u had the headache that night everything around u began to irritate u and everyone seemed perfectly sexy except u. At least u didn't ***** slap some innocent girl hotwalking near your honey...Every age has its sex appeal. Don't try to look like the sexy woman u were. Try to look like the sexy woman U HAVE BECOME! yOU GO GIRL u can do it.