Age: 14
Height: 1,60
Favorite Diet Food: Apple.
Favorite Binge Food: Chocolate.
Favorite exercise: Sports.
Does anyone know?: Some.
- What makes you slip up: When everything just sinks in and I lose myself. I start crying.
- What makes you strong: Knowing there are, magically, some people who care about me too much.
When did it start: Since 2 years ago.
What do you see when you look in the mirrors: That I’m not pretty, and not skinny, and I could be if I tried harder. It’s never enough. But I have to have faith.
Is it for attention: My psychologist says it is for a kind of other attention. I think it’s because I want it myself.
Are you the fat or the thin one in your group of friends: Definitely the fat one. Everyone is so skinny…
Are you depressed: Yes.
Ever tried to commit suicide: Thousand times.
Ever cut yourself: Yes.
Ever been to a psychologist: Yes.
Lost weight: Some.
Gained weight: Not anymore. I don’t let it go that far anymore.
Do you drink: Yes, at party’s only.
Do you smoke: Nope.
Do you take drugs: No.
Does your weight affect your mood: I prefer to not check my weight anymore.
Do you weigh yourself daily: No.
Have you ever fasted: Yes.
Have you ever skipped a meal: Always.
Have you ever spit food out: Yes.
I am:
[x] Bulimic
[x] Suicidal
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[] drinking something
[] eating something
[] under 100 lbs
[x] starving myself
[] vegan
[] vegetarian
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] say I’m skinny
[x] say I’m ugly
[x] talk about me behind my back
[x] force me to eat
[x] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[x] don’t know I’m anorexic/bulimic
[x] have tried to stop me
I wish…
[x] I was thin
[x] I had a better body
[] I didn’t have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[] I could avoid food
[x] I could hide what I am
[x] I was prettier
[x] I could disappear
I love…
[] being hungry
[x] seeing a difference
[] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[] green tea
[] diet pills
[] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
[] I’m shorter than 1,50
[x] think I’m ugly
[x] have self made scars
[] have a tattoo
[] wear glasses
[x] been told I’m pretty by a stranger
[] have more than 2 piercings
[] have piercings besides my ears
[] have freckles
[] am petite
I hate…
[x] when people stare
[] being asked questions
[] having to eat
[x] being single
[x] wearing short skirts
[x] being fat
[x] looking ugly
[x] feeling this way
[] fat people
I need…
[] people to stay out of my business
[] more friends
[x] someone to know
[x] less food
[x] more water
[] gym membership
[x] to lose 30 lbs
[] to lose 20 lbs
[] to lose 10 lbs
[] to lose 5 lbs
eusoulinda eusoulinda
13-15, F
Feb 18, 2013