I still love you, but some times i become so lonely that it feels like its crushing me.

I will never love anyone like i love you, but it's been 2 years since you've been gone. I get so scared sometimes that i'll forget your smile, or the smell of your hair! I miss you so much it rips me apart.

It's so unfair! I get so angry sometimes i can't breath! You were taking from me so suddenly, the last words i spoke to you were in anger!

But i have to let go at some point don't I? I can't keep this up, holding people at arms length because i'm so affraid.

I feel so guilty

But I hate being alone, What should I do?

You would have told me to be strong, but I just don't know what to do without you.

I met somebody yesterday, and i haven't felt like this about anyone in years.

I'm so sorry, I feel like im betraying you. I feel like you're there watching me.

I'll always love you, but how long can i keep this up? I'm so alone all the time.

I don't ever want to forget you, but I need to move on.

I'm sorry.

Tool88 Tool88
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 7, 2010

i cried when i read your post. because the man i fell in love with has also lost his love. and i feel so sad. do you think you're betraying him? <br />
maybe he feels the same way too that's why he has a hard time loving me.its like he has this wall between us that i can't get thru. i love him but i don't know when he will realize that maybe it is she who made us meet online. i really hope you will be able to move on. and maybe ur love guided you to meet that other person. Give yourself a chance to move on.