I am fighting thoughts of suicide. I am a christian, a single mother of four and recently got sick. I am unable to work and after an 16 year marriage and a 6 year nightmare supporting them on my own, I feel like a failure. I have no family support. I was born to a 13 year old mother who was is and always has been unstable. My childhood was a nightmare and I have never felt love. I feel like I always have to try harder. I have been in counseling for the past eight months. I wonder if I am doing anyone any good by being here. I haven't told my therapist. I am afraid it will come back at me.....There was constant abuse growing up and I am struggling. I am emotionally and physically exhausted.