Emotionally I'm Done. Mentally I'm Drained. Spiritually I'm Dead. But Physically I Smile.

Day to day I feel so depressed, ever since my dads accident I just feel like I'm somewhere else. I try to be happy but somethings always dragging me down. of course no one knows this because why burden the world when most people wont care all that much. and  of course I would never try to ruin someones mood with mine, I know I hate when that bad energy from others is dumped onto me!! I know I love to make people happy even though they like to ruin my self esteem, make fun of my outfits calling me a **** because my dress might be an inch above school regulations, it doesn't help when I have no will to defend myself cause I'm just too nice, and what makes it worse is when 50% of the males in the school sexually harass me by grabbing my butt, lifting up my skirt or verbally harassing me asking them to "chop them up" (at my school that means giving head... its ghetto as ****) or people saying bad things about me, I don't even know. but I don't care. one day everyone will grow up. I'm tired of feeling alone and a burden to the world. I'm just going to smile through every snide comment, every touch and word said to me. I'm going to be as strong as I can be.. and be happy.