Change Of Attitude

I have been feeling so guilty, so insufficient, so ugly, so replaceable and insignificant.

I recall, in the midst of my guilt for what I did to my first love and my grandma, I wrote a couple poems calling myself the villain in my story.

I don't want to be that. I don't want to see myself as the Evil Witch anymore. I am going to be the girl who uses past mistakes to empathize more, understand, and learn valuable life lessons. I am going to be the girl who can change and make a difference. I mean, one thing I've learned is that not everyone knows how to let someone make a difference to them ... I do. I've welcomed so many people in playing big parts in my life. So, one day, I will also make a big difference. Somehow, to someone.

I will be the hero in my story. The real, flawed hero - but the hero nevertheless.
naranja naranja
26-30, F
Aug 7, 2010