No Matter What I Will Be Okay

I'm in the process of getting out of a long (for me) (2+ years) relationship to the person who I thought was the love of my life. I know I am young, but he was there for me through my cancer and I thought that for sure he would be with me to the end. I have recently left a grad program because of different reasons, and because of that he thinks differently about me because of it, and how it will look to people. Never mind that I am the one who is dealing with leaving what I thought was my future, apparently its all about him, to the point where he can ignore me for no reason, and turn this situation into something that I am doing TO him, instead of something that I have to work through. How is it that someone you thought you knew, you could be so wrong about? And how is it that just in an instant your life can change? I hate feeling like I should stay with him, and yes I love him, but I don't think that I can do it anymore. I really don't. I need to be true to myself. I need to be happy. I need to be okay. I just need to be me. When everything is all said and done, probably tomorrow, I know I will cry and I know I will be torn up, but I need to be free. And I need to be me.

annadora annadora
22-25, F
Mar 7, 2010