When Comfortable Becomes Uncomfortable...

I wouldn't say that I was a liar.

I wouldn't say that I was honest.

I would say that I was lying to myself before I was lying to you.

I would say that I was attempting to put you at ease whilst making myself uneasy.

But...

I won't do it anymore. Not even a white lie. I realize that at times I owe you nothing. At times, there is nothing to say and being agreeable is equally a lie. At times, telling you the whole truth makes me vulnerable and a white lie offers me a little protection and that is not good enough.

But silence...

Oh yes silence...

Silence is golden.

I will not take for granted that silence speaks louder and more honestly than words. It is okay to be true to myself and deny you the comfort of hearing what you want to hear. It is okay to choose and use my words wisely and by saying nothing at all, I am doing just that...

Choosing my words wisely.