The First Deployment.
Today marks 394 more days to go in my boyfriends 400 days deployment to Afghanistan. It is truly the most difficult thing I have ever put myself through, but I keep telling myself I will get through this not for me but for him. He needs me to stay strong on the home front, but its hard. I feel like I am missing apart of myself now that he is gone, and even though I watched the plane take off it still hasn't hit me that this is the real deal and not just Army training. I guess I am still in the denial stage that it is not really happening, but once I realize everything then I will now that it is real. I keep asking myself if I can get through this and I keep telling myself that I can. I love him more than anything else in the world and I don't want to let go. Even though I cry when I hear his voice on the other line I just have relief that I know that he is safe and sound. This deployment will not get me down because I made a promise to him that I would stay focused with school and that I would make him proud just like he makes me proud. I will survive this deployment!