Deployment

     This is so hard.

     I am going to do this.

      I will be strong.

      If not for me, then I will be strong for him.

      Even though I am letting this tear me apart for the moment, I will get through this.

      I just have to keep telling myself that he is coming back to me.

      It's only for a little while, right?

      I can do this. I really have no choice.

      I will do this.

      For us.

      I will cry, I already know this.

      I will scream, and rant, and rave, and blame everyone and everything for him being gone.

     I will survive this.

     I will learn to live with this.

     I will hate this.

     I will love him with all that I have.

     I will support him.

     I will make this as easy as I can for him.

     I will wait for him. With my arms wide open, a smile on my face, and a tear running down my cheek.

     I will get through this deployment!

     With him, and for him.