When i was around 19 i discovered i had removed a lot of parts in my childhood where i had been molested.
I went to talk to a theraphist ... but instead of helping it worstened everithing.

From then on i felt i was wortheless and it ended up with me having sexual act with a lot of random people.
At times i was alone in the subway with an older men , he would start touching me and ill let him do it or even encourage him

Theres something gone wrong deep in my head that makes me desperetly accept every type of fisical contact ... its like i wish i had people give me attention...
NadalAdal NadalAdal
26-30, M
2 Responses May 20, 2012

I have always had the same problem.. I am glad Im not alone in it. I have never been able to just say no or even resist very hard. I have gone into bookstores just to check it out with no intentions and if anyone was brazen enough to touch me, id let them do it. Same at parties, clubs, friends.. makes no sense.

Its so hard to resist to certain urges...

Your wise words confort me , i truly have found a mentor in you my friend.<br />
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P.S. im gonna answear to your mail quite soon ;)