But In A Good Way

I have always been a fan of Camryn Manheim, a stand-up comedienne and actress that you may have seen on the television show, “The Practice.” She is known for her confidence as a BBW and not allowing others to fit her into a particular box of their choosing. I recently came across a quote of hers that really hit home. “The way I see it, I can either cross the street, or I can keep waiting for another few years of green lights to go by.” Well me I plan on crossing the street and choosing my own path in life. I don’t care if it is the popular choice or not. This quote just re-affirmed that for me.
 
My life is amazing. It’s not perfect by any means but it’s amazing.  I guess sometimes we just need little reminders of how great we have it, and in my recent travels I was reminded of this every day when I saw people washing their clothes in canals with animals, some dead and others dead or dying just upstream from them or to see people living in homes that are literally caving in around them but with no other place to go they stay there.  Although it kind of freaked me out it also gave me little extra reminder of all I have in life and all I have done. It also reminded me that I want to share it all with someone who wants to share the good and the bad with me and that I am lucky to be where I am in life.

I haven’t felt like me for a while now. I am not sure when it happened and there is no definite date that I can pinpoint but it happened.  I haven’t been as sassy or as confident. I haven’t wanted to do the same things. I have been way too negative. And well, I couldn’t even bring myself to write because I didn’t know how to feel inspired; I felt like I had lost my inspiration to put pen to paper. I was spending so much time obsessing over negative things that I couldn’t focus on all the things that are important to me. That’s not me and I don’t like that I was letting that happen Yes, I let it happen, no one else did.

So, I am getting back to being me – the me that I love, because that is so important to me and I can’t let anything or anyone ruin that.  One thing I can take as a growth experience from this time is that I will never let anyone ruin the things that I love. My advice to you is to never allow anyone ruin the things that you love about yourself and your life. No one is worth that. And, the people that are really worth having in your life won’t ever ruin that.