Your Last Warning?So my father has a really bad temper when he is angry. I hate to say he is abusive, because i dont want to see him in that sense. But his behaviour says it all. And I'm not going to give excuses for his behaviour anymore and let me feel like i deserve it.
After he hit me. Days later i could still feel were his hands had been. I was still so scared of him. I couldnt stop crying.
I made him sit down and listen to me and i told him to never touch me like that again. I told him that "i was scarred of you, of my own dad, your behaviour is unacceptable and disgusting". I told him that ive always respected him and loved him, but for him to do that to me, to touch me like that, clearly shows he doesnt respect me at all or love me enough. I gave him his last chance and said i'd be moving out if he did that ever again to me or my sister. I could tell he was sorry and he apologised numerous times, admitting his behaviour was wrong.
But i look at him and hes a different person now. Are you the same dad that used to buy me cupcakes? Are you the same dad that used to go bike riding with me as a kid?
Why the **** did you have to do that to me then? I accepted your apology for peace sake, but i cant ever forgive you or forget!
Why dont i believe you that you wont ever do it again?