Need More Introverted Friends I Guess

OK. so i abandoned my 3 best friends and stopped talking to my buds to for multiple reasons.....

ONE i know some of its my fault, im wat u would call a downer.

HOWEVER, even with the circumstances of my faulty behavior.......... i dont care how not funny i am how boring i r and i r not much of a brainiac either , in fact im not stupid but i am dumb,,,,,,,, with alll this said,, btw the message here is not bout self esteem issues but the point of the matter is,,,,,,, i dont deserve the disrespect that they threw in my face,,,


so walah, i will b a loyal dog to those who deserve it and those who want to b IN the IN groups and doesnt matter how shallow it gets,,, they can have it cuz i want nothing to do with it.....

i only feel guilty for my one friend on a side note, now its sorta flip side of this group cuz i have still my own issues/getting myself together before asking for her forgiveness, ah true friend... i am contradicting myself when i say, would she forgive me and b a real pal,,, however the other 2 friends,,, the one is a darling i just dont click and connect really anyway.... and the other i have already brought up how much of a b itch she was... but then i forgave her and tried to make a connecting friendship work, but alas we just grew apart...

either way after babbling bout my own guilt and proudzations i'd rather b a loner then b surrounded by shallow as sholes and ******,,,

i will always remember wat a true friend should b and learn to b the best i can b as well.
thsone thsone
22-25, F
4 Responses Jul 22, 2010

I don't know, been there, and done with that. The problem with me is I like to assume people are deeper than they are first, and then I am led to a feeling of loss, regardless of whether I admire their flashy ways or not, because they end up being two-faced or nothin cuz they be as deep as the kiddie pool I played in when I was 3, well I'm not 3 anymore. Time ro MOVE on!

I don't know, been there, and done with that. The problem with me is I like to assume people are deeper than they are first, and then I am led to a feeling of loss, regardless of whether I admire their flashy ways or not, because they end up being two-faced or nothin cuz they be as deep as the kiddie pool I played in when I was 3, well I'm not 3 anymore. Time ro MOVE on!

TRU THAT MY FRIEND!! WELL MY OWN 2 BEST BUDS OR SO I THOUGHT, WELL I DNT TALK TO THEM AND I KNOW NOW THAT THEY WERE NEVER TRU FRIENDS BUT LIKE U SAID WHY WOULD U WNNA BE FRIENDS WITH SHALLOW AS PEOPLE THAT ARE EASILY INFLUENCED BY OTHER SHALLOW *** PEOPLE!!

THIS IS WISDOM.