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When I first came to this site, I made a decision to tell the complete truth.  It wasn't really a concious decision, but the anonymity with which I found myself blessed, encouraged a tendency to do here, what I can't do in my real life.  I am aware that everyone has his/her own reason for being here, but I believe all are looking for something that is missing in the rest of our lives.....be that a creative outlet, close friendships, fun, or ,in some cases , extremely personal issues that we are having a hard time resolving.  My most fervent wish..from the deepest part of my soul, is have an extremely honest, devastatingly intimate lover.   If I am not honest, how is that ever to happen??  I could be with my ex bf right now..reveling in his love..if I was willing to be dishonest...but that does not get me what I want..it defeats the entire purpose.   I have suffered many heartaches....and undoubtedly will suffer many more.  But the one thing I am sure of, is that I will be as honest as I possibly can.  I know that I am very intense...and that knowledge, added to my extreme introversion, makes it very difficult , indeed, to put my heart out there.....my intensity has driven off lovers before.  But it is who I am.  I need love in my life...I need intimacy...and above all , I need honesty.

lonesurvivor lonesurvivor 51-55, F 8 Responses Dec 25, 2009

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Believe it or no, it is the truth. I, too, have been bitterly disappointed at the lack of veracity in many of the people I've encountered throughout my life...but especially so here, on EP, where the truth is so very easily manipulated.<br />
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I agree with you about parents lying to their children as a form of coercion....and it's one of the things I hate most about the whole "Christmas holiday". People use a holiday made up of lies (NOT when Jesus was born, NOT a Santa Clause, NOT flying reindeer....etc....), as a supposed celebration to honor our God. What kind of God would want parents lying to their children as an honor??? And what kind of person "honors" their God....a God of truth and love....by doing something He expressly forbids??? "Thou shalt NOT lie"............

@paco35 .....thanks...I can only be me....<br />
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@ maryomaga3......I love the site, too!!

I read your post and I respect you for being your self,,,I am here because it is a way for me to touch others,,,not too long ago I was a wondering all over Turtle Island,,,,for six years I lived out in the world sometimes in the woods sometimes on the streets,,,and sometimes in friends homes,,,and I was very happy living like that,,,,all I had was 40 pounds on my back and my dog gypsey,,,for six years I did that and it was the most awesome adventure,,,and the awesome people I meant moved my soul to tears some were of joy,,,and some very painful and charos,,,,but now I go to college and take care of my mom,,,and she loves me so much because nobody can care for her as good as me,,,,I am really good at loving people,,,,so here I sit day after day looking here on EP for some laughs,,,some share deep meaningful thoughts,,,and sometimes I get a little winded up about issues,,,but who doesn't on here,,,its a great place to be,,,and this is my favorite place to talk and share my Love and Light with any that need and even those that don,t,,,I come here because I believe I belong here,,,well thanks for shareing,,,and many blessing to you on your journey,,,Love and Light Mary

Very Commendable.

And Penny gobbles them all up and returns them right back!!!!!!!<br />
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Love you, my sweet AloraPeace!!!!!!!!!!

And Penny gobbles them all up and returns them right back!!!!!!!<br />
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Love you, my sweet AloraPeace!!!!!!!!!!

Ah, darling! Your honesty is one of the many things that I love about you! I like honest people. I try to be honest too, especially with you, because I feel like I can tell you anything. I am thrilled that you are my friend!!!!!! (Alora gives million hugs and kisses to you)