Withdrawl

i have been a heavy smoker for 4 years, i was going thru emotional damage in early september so i decided to go to a phychiatrist and she sent me heavy medications that i payed no attention to. I would take my medication along with smoking and other drugs. Im guessing one day my body didnt react to it good and i had a very bad anxiety attack almost near a heart attack. My world fell apart, i didnt know what it was to feel normal. I felt unreal for 2 whole months, nothing felt right i felt drugged all the time, nothing felt real. I lost 30 pounds in one month. Now i am going thru recovery, everything is slowly but surely feeling back to normal. I feel as if this was Gods way telling me to stop before something went worse... God works in the weirdest ways, but when everything is going horrible theres always a bright light at the end of the tunnel. I should of died that day, but God held me back for some reason, and now that im feeling normal again im not gonna be an ungrateful ***** and go back to my old ways. New life , new me , all thanks to HIM.
kellyohana kellyohana
18-21
1 Response Dec 12, 2012

Same thing happened to me, except it had been going on for 5 years and it never went away.