yesterday was another one of those days I wish I ould do over. It started out just fine. I had two cups of good coffee. I said goodbye to my husband and then I came online for a bit. later in the day my husband calls me and we are talking. During a pause i try and call him back but his phone is busy. Mother again. Somehow she always calls whenever we are talking. After the conversation I said something about it and he got mad. He aslo said on Sat he is going to drive 3 hours to install a lock on his aunt's door because she does not want to call a locksmith. they cost too much. SO does gas but he'll be burning it to go up there for her. I know I should not be mad but it's the BPD. It makes me perceive things in an reasonable manner. Anyway, it all ended up in an argument and me saying, why don't we just get a divorce? He said he can't handle my depression and disorder anymore so why not? Does he think I am faking it or something? I'm not going to be better by the weekend or anything like that. He has depression too, but because he still stuffs his emotions he thinks he is ok and he thinks he is easier to deal with. he has his moments too, you know. But because of my mood swings and now he apparently does not like me just going to the bedroom and sitting down and being alone instead of arguing with everyone, I am too much of a burden for him. Do you know how that feels to have your own spouse say you're too much trouble for him? I'm angry and I feel sad at the same time.