Just Another Battle

After successfully battling anorexia, bulimia, and binge eating, I thought I was pretty much "better". But I'm not seeing my psychologist anymore and it's been getting harder for me to fight my weight issues. Taking the laxatives seemed like a less harmful thing to do. So I tried them for about a week before I started seeing the psychologist. Recently, I started taking them again, two tablets once a day, just to sate my urge to starve, binge, or purge. After stepping on the scale tonight for the first time in a month, I nearly cried. Then I immediately popped four tabs since it was too late to purge. I'm afraid this will become an addiction and become another problem I have to face. Just when I was getting used to being "problem-free". So I joined this group and I'm hoping it will help motivate me even a little to not take them every day.
grobiegirl12 grobiegirl12
18-21, F
Jan 15, 2013