Goodbye For Now

So as another day begins it's time to close this chapter of my life. Its been a good run, and i have met alot of awesome people. Some of you have been really awesome friends and some of you have left me when i needed you the most, but most of all idk where i would've been if i hadn't came on here. Before i leave here and say goodbye for one last time, there are a few people i want to thank. So lets start this from the top. I came here in 2011 toward the end of the yr that yr, under a username that i thought no one could ever find me, i mean really who's gonna take the time to type my entire username in? Lol i thought i was being clever and thought i was good at hiding, but i wasn't. I got caught by my older brother, and pretty much was asked to delete my account, i refused he made a deal with me, told me if i wouldn't add boys, i could keep my account, so for the most part i tried to respect him. So i started maken new friends, that where always there when i needed them. The first person i met was ediezen, when i was getting picked on in the confession room, she was there saying i was a trooper, and that i didn't back down in a fight, i guess she saw something in me that no one else could see. This is why it hurts me to write this, to you mama, i will most likely never get to meet you in person, or anything like that, but i want you to understand that i love you and no matter what you will always be apart of my life. This past yr, i lost a friend to suicide when she hung herself, you were there for me mama, telling me to pick myself up, wipe the tears from my eyes, put a smile on my face and to remember the good times i had with her. It's hard to think about her, not being in my class's with me, chelzers, jessi, becca, keylee, morgan, kendra, and everyone else. But if there was one thing i learned from you mama, its this: Your only as tall as your heart will let you be. And your only as small as the world will make you seem.I have always felt we had a mother daughter relationship.  I will miss you mama. Aunt Dente, when i first met you i didn't know you very well to understand you lol, but over time i have grown to know your not just a person, your a person that will go beyond the call of duty as a friend. Your here rain,sleet,snow or sun shine, your here for us. Aunt Dente, i know i let you down and for that i am sorry. I wished i could take back that night, but i cant now i have to live with my mistake. I love you aunt dente. You taught me the most greatest lesson ever. What it is to love someone and mean it. My big brother Doxtah, didn't really get to know you that much, cause ep admin removed you from my group, but your my big bro no matter what. Take care charmy, AND TRY TO BEHAVE YOURSELF!!!! IM NOT ASKING YOU TOO IM TELLING YOU TOO!!!.Ok im asking you too, i don't want to get beat up. LuckyPickle, i think we sorta found each other, lol idk how we did that but we did, and im grateful we did. Lucky, i love you with all my 4'5" body can love someone, if anything your one of the few that stayed with me, talked with me, laughed with me, and my words are what they are words, but i love you. Odie, your my big aunt on here, you make me laugh, your there for me when i need you, you always check on me, and if it wasn't for you, idk if i could've lasted this long.And kitty, my dear aunt kitty, sometimes i just look at your pics or read one of your stories and crack up laughing. 777heaven, where you are thank you for being there for me. And last but not least, Rob, i know your not on here, i wished you were, i need you, you have been like a father figure to me. You've been a big laugh when i needed one, a big shoulder to cry on when i needed it, so thank you. Its bitter sweet the way it ended for me, the way i chose to say goodbye, trust me this wasn't what i wanted either, but some of you know the reason i am leaving ep. I need this space for myself, I need to refocus of my school, my life, my future. I plan to graduate h.s. a yr early so i can enroll early into college.

On May 9th, 1997, this little girl was born in Tuscaloosa, Alabama, she came to ep as a hard headed, dorky, lovable, bratty, teen. But she leaves you as a grown woman. She leaves the same way she came.................with a bang. And i wouldn't have it any other way. THANK YOU GUYS!!!

From Tuscaloosa, Alabama to Paris, Texas.

love you always ♥♥♥♥Sam♥♥♥♥

*edit* I should say, this is  not goodbye forever, but goodbye for now. And who knows, maybe someday i'll sign on to say hi to you guys. I would also like to add i am not deleting my account, but i am taken a break from here. So i will still be here, just not on here.
sammiesweetheart sammiesweetheart
18-21, F
7 Responses Feb 2, 2013

So beautifully written. You touched my heart.


oh you hush, i live up the street from you, so its not like i don't see you everyday

I wish you the best of luck with everything you seem to have a good plan for things ahead and I think you will reach those goals in a big way. Again good luck and wish you the best ! ty for having me as a friend on here.

your welcome:)

*hugs* You know how to find me chickie. <3 love ya

i know mama:)

Why do the good ones always leave? Such a shame. :-(

i just think its time for me

If you do come back, I hope you feel you can talk to me more. I wish you best of luck in school and everything else.
Aunt Kitty (((hug)))

thank you, aunt kitty:)

I will be here if you ever need me in the future.


thanks dente:)

You can always change your mind as well...and stay...just sayin ; )

lol i know i can, but my grades are slipping