This Time I'll Do It For Real

I have tried to stop smoking so many times i can even remember, and  everytime i fail because the smoke beat me, so i sit smoke and cry of how stupid I'm LOL. When i started smoking??  . My mom and dad  both used to smoke and when i was a little girl ( 7 ot 8) i used to sit near them when they were smoking  because i liked the smell of cigarrets, I'm such a weirdo I know. So my first smoke, I robbed it from my dad....sneak out and "smoke" it on the backyard but i started coughin and my sis caugh me and told my dad.... so he was really mad at me and he grounded, i didn't do it again until i was like 15. So yeah now i want to stop and I can't. I will try it again i will start tomorrow i already threw away the smokes i had, I will not use nicotine patches or gum, I will do It on my own........ wish me luck
Secretpoem Secretpoem
22-25, F
3 Responses Aug 15, 2007

. I'm 30 and I started smoking when I was 12. I did it for varying reasons over the years. I did it to be cool. I did it to fit in. I did it to relax. I did it while I was in the army because you get longer breaks. I did it at school because I had something in common with the other smokers. I did it because I had tried almost everything to quit. I've tried hypnosis. (It was restful but it didn't help and cost me good money) I've tried cold turkey. (But I have a 3 year old son and the stress caused me to be short tempered with him) I've tried the patch and the gum. (But to me taking nicotine to get over the addiction to nicotine is kind of pointless)<br />
So has anyone heard of Chantex? It's a pill that you take twice a day. It is not a nicotine substitute. I went to the doctor to discuss quitting and the doctor told me about it. She had 5 nurses on it and they all swore it was the best thing that happened to them. It is kind of expensive because it is new and many insurance types don't cover it. It cost me about $130 per month. But I didn't even need it for a full 2 months.<br />
When I first got it I read all the direction and warnings for it. The instructions say that you will still have the withdrawals and the anxiousness and the aggravation and stress that come with quitting. By the time I finished reading it I was thinking "Why the hell would I take it then?" The reason it works, despite the withdrawals is one thing. Even though you feel edgy and aggravated and even if you know that a cigarette will make than go away, the idea of having a cigarette just doesn’t come up. I know it seems hard to believe but it’s true! I staid away from groups of smokers. I did not follow my friends out on the break to continue the conversation while they had a smoke. And it worked! I had the worst case of I need one as soon as I wake up, as soon as I finish eating, as soon as my son goes down for a nap, as soon as I need a break from life, as soon as I get on break, and right before I go to bed. GOD!!! WHAT A HABIT!!!<br />
So it's a psych drug. So you will go through all the withdraws. But I took it anyway. And you know what... It Works! Within the first week I went from 1 1/2 packs a day to just 2 cigarettes a day. The second week I was done! I haven't had a cigarette since November 24 2009.<br />
I hope this helps some of you who are feeling like it can't be done. <br />
Also there is a program called RX Help where if you qualify they will pay for it for you.<br />
Good luck. It makes such a difference!

You can't quit! Don't even try. You can torture yourself all you want - there is no quiting!<br />
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The people who used to smoke, like years ago - they didn't quit! You can't quit! They got TIRED of the damn smoke!

GOOD LUCK!!!!!!!! My dad did it on his own too - I'm very proud of him. => It took a while, so don't be too hard on yourself, okay? I never knew any other smell than that of the cigarettes on my dad when I was younger, so I get what you mean. Sending anti-smokes vibes your way... :P