I am sad, every time i get up in the morning i always get that sad cold painful feeling deep in my chest and i know it's not going to be easy anymore, But i also know that i'm not going to lose my constant battle against my own body. Yea my muscles are weak but so what!! Maybe i'm a little weak emotionally too but again being weak is not a shame >>>>right!!?. Yea i am trying and i will keep trying. I'm fighting for myself now and together me and my doctor are going to fix this. It's going to take some time but yea we are not doing magic!!. I did not --->>> GIVE UP <<<--- on myself yes i didn't even though my own Dad & Grandpa did but whatever! it's their loss. I am free to choose how to live my own life and my own future and i will fight i will keep fighting for my freedom. Honestly i can fix this, it's not gonna be easy though. I just need to i have to make a difference and i am on my way.