I Will Write Today
Here we go again, Three years now and still such a threshold to cross. I have to work so hard to keep myself busy so the darkness of grief doesn't gain on me, if I let my guard down I will be overtaken and the internal light, that light that is the core of who I am, will be snuffed out, and darkness will slither in and I will be lost for a spell. I fight to keep my perspective, losing a loved one is like losing a limb, and you still feel it, as a phantom. Pity party is not my style, so I reach into my treasure chest of things to be thankful for, I pull out my ole faithful, it has gotten my through many bouts of the blues. I loved and was loved, I shared years with my friend, my husband, my love. How blessed I have been to have found such love to begin with. Some never even get close to such happiness. So Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, the holiday... I live thanksgiving on a yearly, monthly, weekly, daily basis just to make it through, and tonight I'm thankful for all in my life, present and past. "Happy Thanksgivings" to all my EP family
