I Just Miss Him

I just miss him, with every ounce of my being. I'm left wondering why he left, why he felt someone else would make him happier. I tried my best, and gave everything I could, more than I should have, but it wasn't enough. He felt the grass would be greener with someone else. I work hard now to keep a friendship, so at least, there is something. What was so wonderful about her, that he felt I couldn't give him? She is richer and, yes, more intelligent than me. Skinnier as well. If there was a "competition," I lost before I even stood up to perform. But I gave what I could. I loved him. I cared for him. I gave him what little money I had. I took care of him at 4 o'clock in the morning, and still got up for work the next day. And yet, she's better. She deserved his attention. She deserved the gifts. I get chewed out from 3 in the morning until I had to go to work, because I called asking where he was and why he wasn't home yet. I was scared. And yet, she calls, whining that she can't sleep, at 3 in the morning, and it's OK. I was just never good enough for him. NEVER good enough for him.

Never good enough.
ijustmisshim ijustmisshim
26-30, F
2 Responses Apr 25, 2007

What a jerk..the grass is NEVER greener on the other side. Get skinnier, get smart..make some money, be happy..fake it till you make it..he is NOT the one..I hope you find the ONE or he finds you! And at that time your ex will have a bad case of dumpers remorse!

Its horrible when someone breaks your heart and makes you feel like you are not worthy. He will probably start treating her the same way you wait and see. People are often on their best behavior when they first get with them. Then their true colors show through. My ex made me feel that way and he went with another woman. Now he is doing the same thing to her that he did to me. You deserve better than that just believe it!