End The SecrecyI am a crossdresser and have had these feeling since I was four years old although at the moment I'm not practising. Until I was six I thought I was a girl and when I discovered being a boy I was disappointed. I thought I was the only one who felt this way until I saw a documentary on TV when I was about 11 or 12 that featured a transsexual. She told how uncomfortable she was being male and I could relate to that. It was the first time I'd heard that said and I took notice but said nothing.
I was aware of my feelings during my teenage years but other things more on my mind: school work and girls. I am non physical and quite feminine in my ex
Family circumstances changed and I had to stop dressing. I really miss it and think of it a lot. The feeling to dress again and to express my inner woman is becoming stronger. The secrecy is becoming hard to bare by restricting something I need to do and preventing me from being totally me. It feeds on itself by inhibiting others from doing the same.
Becoming more open about it on Experience Project is my tentative steps at coming out fully as a crossdresser and transgender. I like me this way and would have it no other.
meganb1 36-40, T 5 Responses 4 Feb 20, 2013