I Want To Say More...


I don't know what is wrong with me. lol. I'm going to bring this up to my therapist on Friday. (I'm being treated for depression.)

It feels like I have just shut down and basically don't have much to say and I don't know why.
I worry about the lack of communication between my husband and myself. He is very into his work and mainly talks about work and the bills.

After a stressful day of work, we do have supper together. My way of trying to unwind is by taking a shower and going to our bedroom to read and watch tv. He would be downstairs watching 2 1/2 Men for the 2nd or third time.

And the thing is, I'm acutely aware of how little I talk and this seems to make it worse. The times in which conversation just flow out of me are rare. I wish they were more often.

My mother is one who never allows anyone else to have their own viewpoint if it differs from how she feels. And she will say "you are twisting it, I can't believe my own daughter feels this way, you are just like your father." But at my age, I'm old enough to know how my own mother is.

I don't know if my lack of communication is depression related or what. Am hoping to find out Friday.

Just wondering if anyone can relate.

Goddess65 Goddess65
41-45, F
Apr 4, 2012