Dear Everyone

I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

yeah, i'm so weird, this is me..
even the words won't be enough to mention all of my flaws..
i have a weird way of thinking and feeling
i take everything seriously until i come to many decisions
when i wanna know the truth, it just takes some times to find it out
somehow God always lets me know, even if it hurts

today i can be happy like i have never been sad
but tomorrow i can be sad like i will kill myself
my mood changes continously, i always try to cheer myself up
on my own, yeah i'm all alone
when people tell me they wanna help
they always end up hurting me with their words
always, and i'm sick of it all
no one can really understand me

there are days when i really think to kill myself
with the pills i always prepare
some people call me cowards and losers
cause i never really try
well, do you know why?
i have a vision in this life
there's a mision in my world
there are so many people i hate
and i don't want them to see
me dying unhappy
i don't wanna die unhappy
i wanna be a perfect memory
not to everyone, just to the matter ones

i'm not kind of girl who always gets a boyfriend
i don't like hanging out with friends
and music is my escape from loneliness
i love it more than everything
which always keeps me alive
i just need to sing and play guitar
then i can forget those hurtful things

and yeah i love that guy
who treated me like his little sister
but has different world with me
i wish i would meet him again
in the better days inside the same world

which is so far away from all the good times
we left behind where the memories
are left unforgotten
HakujitsuSeiten HakujitsuSeiten
18-21, F
3 Responses Sep 17, 2012

I still don't really know you that well. not much you can do to really know someone on a chat bar, but I like you. You're cool :) I'm a pretty weird too if you havn't noticed yet.

thankies :P and i'm sure i'm much weirder than you o.O

You don't need to worry about your flaws... just be yourself, young lady... things will turn out okay if you love from the heart.

I know exactly what you mean. I'm still looking for the Island of Misfit Toys.

looks like the three of us have found it xD