I Wish I Could Go Back In Time...

I wish I could go back in time to give her what she wanted. She didn't want but someone that was stable and that she could count on. She never asked for money or favors. She just wanted to be supported and loved. I wish I could go back in time and been more responsible to keep her. I miss her so much it hurts. I love her even more even though she has forced herself to get over me. She wanted a partner, friend, and lover. I was too selfish to give her what she wanted and needed. I always showed her I loved her but couldnt keep a steady job and never helped her financially as she took care of me. If only I could go back in time and help her with the little help she needed but never asked for. I love her tremendoulsy because she is an amazing woman. She never judged me or looked poorly on me. I am terribly sorry for not being there for me my Sweets. I will never stop loving you as I have already tried but to no avail. I will hide behind my smile and portray that there is nothing wrong knowing that you are the only one that can make that smile true. If I could go back in time I would change everything so that there would be no reason to write this now. I love you and I miss you. I am desperately changing my life so that one day you can see that I have changed for the better and you will one day have dinner with me. I love you Sweets.
gvexed gvexed
36-40, M
Jan 23, 2013