Heartache That Will Not Heal

I let to many people and false pride get in the way of our relationship.  That old saying "you don't know what you got till it's gone".  It is so true.  We had seperated for about a year, after we got back together some people in his family made it very difficult for our relationship.  We hardly ever had anytime together.  He started to give me mixed signals about us.  When we would go to places he started to walk away like he did not want to be seen with me. We had been together for six years. Nine months of getting back together, I think we may only had three good months. Then everything started going down hill.  His family probaly thinks that I wanted him because he was in the military, So wrong. I did not care what his job was.  I just wanted time with just him.  I did not want to leave him but I did not know what else to do. It's been a long time, but I will never love anyone, the way  I loved him.  Leaving him is my biggest regret.

If anyone out there is trying to decide if they want a divorce.  Make sure you take the time out and foucs on the true reasons you want to leave.  My ex mentioned marriage counciling, I refused now I think it would be a good idea for couples.  Going thru a divorce is very hard especially if you really love that person.  I wish someone could've told me this a long time ago.  


malubu malubu
36-40, F
1 Response Jul 29, 2007

When one door closes another opens...be patient