Space to Breathe

It's been 5 months. I have lasted this long without contacting him after our break up. The process is a slow one and requires patience. There have been times when I have had the huge urge to hit SEND.... especially when I am nostalgic of some sweet memory and I wonder whether I've let go of the best thing that could've ever happened to me. Those sweet memories are murderous.
I've firmly resolved not to contact him until it has been a year. I feel that it gives both of us enough time and space to move on with our lives without each other. It is only fair to both me and him.
On a more realistic note, perhaps I am afraid to find out that he had already moved on to the next beautiful, smart, young woman within 5 short months. I am protecting myself from this devastation... perhaps.
In all cases, I am quite happy with my decision. And I feel myself slowly and slowly regaining my sense of identity, my personal freedom. I have a deeper respect for myself. This space to breathe has given me perspective... I am certain now that life without him will fulfill me. What a great feeling.
hibislo hibislo
31-35
4 Responses Jul 24, 2007

Wow, I think you have done it in a very good way, not many women can do that... I would guess he might wonder how you could be so cold. <br />
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I wish I would be able to do the same!!!

I like your profile pic!

Thanks Warmth! I'm still keeping up with this. I'm determined to hold out for as long as possible. Maybe even over a year. I've never contacted anyone I've dated after a break-up. Cold-turkey, always. So this would be a first. It will be a personal breakthrough. Attempting something never attempted before. <br />
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I wonder if... by a simple "How are you?" ... I'd also be resolving this loss within myself. Would it allow me to let go.... fully?

That is awesome that you can do go through the pain and refr<x>ame it ... i hope im able to do that .