Its Just Never Gonna Happen

 were three states away from each other and hes hurt me so many times .. but i refuse to let go ... i dont think i can nor do i want to ... he said the other night that we were meant to be together . Its been a yr now ... and we still have a longing for each other .. how he can have a gf and say he loves me is something i cant comprehend ... i should ask him that ...although i did the same thing .. but i  wasnt planning on hearing from him  i automatically ended my relationship at the time .. not necessarily  because of him there were other issues but he did play a part in most of it ...  I want to be with him but we cant reach a compromise ... he wants me to move here i want him to move here and were both saying its not gonna happen .. but he also tells me we were meant for each other ... im praying for it and if it in God's will it will happen one day ...  
I just i dont know ... i cant let go ...  i love him ... i dont keep interest in men very long .. for it to be over a yr ... is a miracle . I long for him daily .. think of what he may be doing ... how hes with her ... and it makes me want to cry ,..... I was listening to that dirty dancing song from the soundtrack shes like the wind and i cried and cried ... i miss him ... and i love him ...
starstruck2xtrme starstruck2xtrme
26-30, F
Aug 22, 2007