Here's Something I Experience Alot, And In No Way Is It Nice.

My stomach turns every time I go to say the words "I love you" and I feel lost like there's not much point to many things, but I know I'm supposed to push through this and I know what's right and wrong.
I don't know if I can ever be better, prior to all this I fell inlove with two girls.
I still like girls and I really want to get to know them and try and love again but as soon as they start liking me in that way I get the worst Anxiety and then I just want nothing to do with them.
The worst part is I've never talked to anyone about this in my entire life.
I can't even say I love you to my own Mother, Father, Sister, or even My best mate without feeling sick in the stomach or my throat tightening.
And everyday I'm trying to be better, what can anyone say that can actually help me, people generally come to me for answers.
How do you help someone when they don't even know what their actual problem physically is.
Love isn't just a word you can throw around, it's the kind of word that has feelings in it.
It's like taking a part of yourself and putting into that word and giving it to someone.
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Jan 14, 2013