I Wish I Could Sleep/Rest My Life Away
Sleeping is so relaxing. I never want to rise & face another day of challenges I don't have the skills to handle. Even simple tasks that sound good in my brain I physically don't have the energy to do. If I just sleep I won't spend any more of my dwindling funds. Yes eventually other people will regard me as slacker, okay, I can live with that. I don't see the point of being so called productive when it really never makes any difference anyhow.
Sleeping allows my eyes to rest and I won't battle eyestrain. Yes, I do still feel pain when sleeping; but, it's not as noticeable as when I'm awake. Plus when I'm asleep I can peruse the vastness of my imagination & have an enjoyable experience without regard to money, societal restrictions or irritating situations. It's like living in fantasy land where I make all the rules. Even unpleasant experiences can be adjusted to be less irritating, I can't do that in reality. Plus when asleep I don't notice all my weaknesses or limitations, and they don't hold me back from doing anything. It's like an illusion that's acceptable, even though actual sleeping isn't.
I know these thoughts are considered by some to be delusional. I know I'm supposed to suffer my life away doing all those required tasks to busy up my time so I won't notice that I really haven't achieved anything worthwhile, though it'll seem as if I had since I was constantly busy with activities. I know the rules. I just don't want to follow them. Life with them is so boring & uneventful. Sleeping is never boring. It's usually restful & invigorating. I know I would have to wake every so often in order to notice the difference & that would be fine, as long as I could spend most of my life asleep,