It Breaks My Heart To See You Cry.

Yes, I'm talking about you. Whoever is reading this.

There are times when I'm in a perfectly happy social situation, and then my mind just navigates to how many people are suffering at that moment in time, and it just kills my mood every time. I don't regret it... not at all. But I guess what I'm trying to say is that, a lot of times I find it hard to be happy thinking about all the suffering that's out there. Honestly, if I could do just one thing with my time, I would spend it trying to take away the pain of as many people as possible. It breaks my heart to see others suffer... I've seen strong people break down and cry in front of me, and it just shatters me. I wish I could do something, anything, to help those that need it. I don't care about having fun and living in a carefree way... I don't. I just want to help others have it. I just don't know how to start, or where to start, even though that is in no way an excuse. I don't think my life is made for my happiness... but for the happiness of others. I just want to see everyone smile... I want to see everyone happy. But where do I start?
in0centbeauty23 in0centbeauty23
18-21, F
8 Responses Oct 30, 2010

im like that too n u know something?with ur story u do a lot too*hugs

Exactly, I couldn't have said it better myself. It's definitely bittersweet :].

You are very empathetic...that's a great quality to have and makes you such a wonderful person. Don't ever stop caring or thinking about those that suffer, but at the same time please don't let it "kill your mood" or bring you down. A wise man once said to me, "When the lifeboat tips over, who are you going to save? Before you can save anyone else, you have to pull yourself up out of the water first." It's truly amazing to know that you have this desire to want to help everyone end their suffering, but don't let it burden your heart to the point where you become so saddened. It's ok to be aware of the suffering that occurs everyday all over the world and still enjoy yourself and be happy. Nobody's life is defined by one idea, or one moment. It's a compilation of moments - so spend those moments trying to help those around you but be happy too!<br />
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(Oh my gosh, I sound like Morgan Freeman narrating a movie.) =P

You're definitely right. It does make us strive for more and help as much as possible - so I guess that it's bittersweet in a way. Regardless, I'm glad that there are people like us that do what we can, because even if we can't save everyone, at least we will be the ones that tried :)

I agree with you, it's true no matter what you do there will still be people somewhere, hurting. Maybe you'll always think like that. Like me, maybe I'm always going to think I can't do everything and anything I want to do. But maybe this is a good thing; maybe you'll always be striving to help all those people, and while you're trying to do that, you're helping a great deal of people, even if it's not all those people, you're helping a lot of people. And maybe I won't get to do everything I want but I'll always be striving to reach all the things I want in life.

Yeah, I love volunteering and all that good stuff, but no matter what I do, there are still going to be people out there hurting. No matter how much time I spend helping the people around me, there are still going to be tears shed and lives lost. I know it's an extremely pessimistic way to look at it, and helping people does make me feel better, but it doesn't take away from the thought of all the people I'm not helping or that I'm unable to help.

I agree with guardian angel. Volunteering has made me the happiest I have ever been in my life since my falling out with depression that started years ago. I volunteered with little kids at a camp over the summer, attended to all their little needs, made them feel better, especially when they were upset over missing their parent (shattered by divorce or seperation), or maybe they just missed them. I love children, and I love making others feel better or happy. The happiest they seemed was when I would get involved with them, do whatever they were doing. I don't think I ever frowned around them. I wish I could see them right now, all their little smiles, their little arms wrapping me in a long hug...<br />
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But you sound like a wonderful person, and just to hear that someone like you is out there in the world, just made me smile, and I thank you for that :]

Volunteer. Go to a food bank and give food to the hungry. Volunteer at a hospital behavioral health unit and be that person who listens and offers comfort. There are many ways to make a difference.